Here we go!! No matter how bad of day you had today tomorrow is a new day. My first words of advice. It took me a long time to really understand that. I was always the person who fell off the wagon on a Tuesday and waited to restart until the following Monday. WTF? That doesn't even make sense. It sounds more like an excuse to have a whole week to eat shitty food and not feel bad about it because "I'm restarting on Monday" Uggg I wonder how many restarts it took me to get to 330 pounds? Wasted time... its hard to think about how much time I wasted being so heavy. I'm 31 years old so I ate away my 20s. As of this morming I am 195.0 pounds. I weigh every morning in my socks and underwear, after a pee and a shower. I know this sounds O.C.D but hey.. it's what works for me. I'm new at this blogging thing so bare with me and if there is anything you ever want to know just ask me.

It has taken me about 6 years to lose 130 pounds. Don't worry... it's because I kept giving up! hahaha From the time I was about 21 until 4 years ago I was a very heavy drinker. This is how I gained the majority of my weight. In high school I was right around 165-170 so I was never a tiny person. The time I wasted drinking is even harder to swallow than the time I wasted being heavy. At least I remember the heavy times! I would drink ridiculous amounts of alcohol and then eat a gigantic meal. This went on DAILY for at least eight years. When I say DAILY I mean it. Every single day I'd drink 1/2 liter of blackberry brandy and at least 6 beers. No wonder I got so fat. I got sober June 9th 2008. I just quit.. no treatment and no help. A friend of mine got very very ill from drinking too much and spent a few months in the hospital. Major wake up call. I've had a beer a couple times since then and it's just not my thing any more. I don't want alcohol to be a part of my life.

Like I said, it's taken me FOREVER to lose this weight. Over the years I've lost some here and there but I really got serious (again) a couple months ago. I've lost 22 pounds in the past few months. I'm beyond proud of myself.. maybe even a little cocky about it. HEY I've worked damn hard to lose this weight so if you don't like my attitude about it then suck it! hahahaha I've earned it!